I went to Washington D.C. this weekend. I can't describe how incredible it was when we crossed the bridge over the Potomac River. I looked over and saw the Washington Monument and the Lincoln Memorial, brightly lit and standing tall amidst the soft rain. Chills went up my neck. It was an "Ah-ha" moment.

This has been a long week. It's just that time of the semester. I feel myself fighting the urge (and sometimes giving in) to coast...academically and otherwise. I don't like myself when I coast. I know I can and should be better than that.

I select classes for the Spring semester next week. I have been praying about choosing a major. Last year I wanted to study music (so much that I DID study music). But I knew God hadn't called me to full-time music ministry. Deciding that a music degree isn't practical for me, I had a change of mind and heart. So I thought if music ISN'T practical than what IS practical? Business. So contemplation of majoring in business resided in my thoughts over the summer and spilled into the school year. But the more I have thought about business, the more I have decided that business is simply too right-brained for me. I have thick skin, a good head on my shoulders, and I tend to do well at getting things done...but I don't know if I could deal with all the numbers and math classes that come with picking up a business degree. Sure, I could probably handle it...but could I enjoy it? Maybe, but not likely.

So. Back to square one. Here I am registering for my 4th semester of college, and I still don't know what I'm doing with my life. Wouldn't it be great if you could just facebook God and ask him what He wants you to do with your life? Okay maybe not. That would kill the adventure and I suppose we wouldn't really have any reason to trust God. Honestly, I havn't lost any sleep over not knowing. God has brought me this far. And during the last week or so I think He has been speaking to me about looking at a degree in English. I have always loved english growing up. I love reading, I am a good writer/communicator (I'm no Thomas Jefferson, but I do okay), I love books, and I constantly correct peoples grammar (lol). I used to think that english majors just went on to teach. The few people that I have discussed with, hit me with that very question: "Do you wanna teach?" No. I want to make money. :) There are many career fields that people with english degrees can go into. Business, Government, Politics, Entertainment, etc...

I'm just running through doors as I come to them. I learned something from a college bible study I went to last year. We were discussing the future and God's will for our lives and such. The leader made a point that has stuck with me. She said something like this: "We aren't always going to know exactly what God wants us to do before we do it. I encourage you to just pursue SOMETHING. Something you love or enjoy. Run through doors until God closes them. Don't just sit around and wait for a revalation to tell you exactly the path that is right for you." I really liked that. I think God lets oppurtunities arise...and you can make decisions in life in an effort to "be in God's will." And I believe God can/will bless your decisions based on your motivation and if they are pleasing to Him. But I don't believe that God's will for your life reads like divine mapquest directions, where every turn is plotted out for you (though He is sovreign and knows the path we choose). I think we could choose from a variety of different ways in which to accomplish His will. Maybe not. I don't know if this makes any sense... but it makes sense in my head. I could be dead wrong. :)

Anyway, I think I'm realizing that English is where its at for me. In every occupation (at least the ones that I'd be interested in), one needs to know how to communicate oneself effectively. I still want to pursue music (especially in ministry, whether I'm picking a check up for it or not). I think I'd be foolish to ignore my passion for music.

Everything else in my life is great. Crimson Flood travels to Amelia, VA on Sunday. We started recording Thursday. We hope to have an Album release in January.

That's it.

Caleb

 

...Ahem...

I deleted my other xanga because I hadn't updated it since December... and I like a fresh start every once in a while. So here goes. You are officially part of Caleb's xanga excursion pt. 2.

I'm presently sitting in U.S. history class. We are watching a video about George Washington that couldn't have been published any sooner than 1979. This is why I am writing on my (new) xanga...in hopes that people will read it. Although, I suppose that even if no one does, its still a nice way to express some thoughts and ideas...or something. Then again, If no one reads it...is anything really being expressed? If a tree falls in the woods...and no one is there to hear it fall...did it really make a noise? Hmm...

In this first post I'd like to throw this on the table from one of my favorite historical characters:

"If you would not be forgotten as soon as you are dead, either write something worth reading or do things worth writing." -Benjamin Franklin

So as I endeavor to accomplish something worth writing, in the meantime I will attempt to write something worth reading.

More later. I Promise.

CG